Blackseraphine

Thoughts on the movie The Hottest State

A 20 year old actor living in New York navigating his newfound romance and life as a young man.

I'm William, I'm an actor, so I'm always full of shit.

I wondered how other men in general behaved when they were alone with women.

Are you nervous

No, i'm not nervous.

Yeah, I'm nervous. I'm nervous all the time.

Why do you want to be an actor

It's the only thing I'm really good at.

I'm just whoever I pretend to be. Have you ever felt like that?

Like all you are is somebody you are pretending to be.

You are somebody, if you stop pretending it'll come out by itself.

Do you want to get married?

No.

Sometimes I think if I stayed I'd be a regular person instead of running around with my head cut off.

Looking at her now her door I had the profound feeling that my life would change but not in the way I thought. I was twenty years old but by the time I was 21 I'd be heartbroken.

I could see where it could relate to him.

But also, I could see where I could relate to this, to her. I also made that stupid boundary.

But more than that, I think, the more I look at it the more I could understand why she did what she did. 

I don't think men, not him specifically, but men in general, have any idea how much loving them can consume a woman's life.