Blackseraphine

 Sometimes you have to be at the bottom before you can get up.

I'm not exactly at the bottom. Far from it. But it does feel like I'm being humbled, kicked down by a series of mishaps, an unlucky streak since last week.

I thought of going out on Sunday of last week. I had thought a change of scenery would help get me out of this rut. Even if it's somewhere close. 

I originally thought of going early but I woke up with a headache and had to leave so late in the day.

My sister had suggested a store with a cheap but good drink. I went there. Got yelled at on the way there by a driver because I was four feet away from the pedestrian lane. Yeah...I was. I own up to it. But! His vehicle was also blocking half the pedestrian lane!

I got to the store, and this was on the opposite corner of the commercial center from where I arrived so it was a bit of a walk. It was closed. Damn.

Hung out at the open area of the mall, without a drink, no energy to get one. Could have sat forever in one place but had to move because I kept finding myself in other people's backgrounds while they were taking photos.

I didn't want to go home empty handed so to speak. So I went to the grocery store which was about to close at that moment. So I quickly picked up a bunch of green beans. I thought I'd pay the exact amount so I can be gone in a minute. I even said not to bother bagging it, i can just put it in my bag. Quick, right? Just needed to wait for my receipt. Which wouldn't print out. The cashier had to call somebody over, restart the machine, call the guard for permission for me to leave without a receipt. Almost ten minutes for the whole thing. So much for leaving quickly. 😑

I ordered an item from an online shop. Waited two days only for them to cancel. No explanation. Not too bad. Very common.

I ordered an item with a supposedly free hair oil. They sent a sheet mask instead. I contacted the seller and they just said 'sorry for the inconvenience it's oos.' I said shouldn't you replace your ad? They thank me. Yeah, they're still advertising with the non-existent hair oil. And I looked at their past reviews and they had a history of complaints for non-existent advertised free included items. 

I ordered a pack of nine hair clips the week before, two came broken. Complained and got a discount voucher to reorder. Bought another pack last week. Another two clips broken. 😑 Now I'm wondering if I'd look like a scammer if I complained further. Maybe I was the one getting scammed. 😑😑

And overall they're not so bad, right?

Until this Sunday night. I broke a tooth. While flossing.

Flossing is supposed to be a good thing! For your teeth's health! 😑

I went on Monday to get my tooth fixed. I was so fixated on how unfortunate it was to break my teeth while flossing–I'd like to keep all of them as long as I can! But then while I was thinking this... the train stopped at the station and everybody went out. The guard was telling me to get out. I was confused, until I realized I rode the train going in the wrong direction! 

After finally getting back on the train, in the right direction and getting off the right station, I thought I'd check that store again. I was finally able to buy that drink! Crossed the street and was on my way towards the grocery store. My sister messaged me telling me to get drinks for them. I thought I'd wait for her follow-up message on what to get then buy the other drinks before I drank mine. I waited on the street, in the heat. Her text didn't come until 15 minutes later. My drink had melted.

And I thought that was it for my unlucky streak.

Truthfully, after last week I thought I was feeling like I was finally getting out of the slump that I had been in for months. Being out more often–the change of scenery–even if it involved just doing errands, helped. 

But then my series of mishaps continued.

I bought a pack of arugula seeds last week. I spilled almost half of it trying to take a video for the product review while planting them. Only one sprouted today. I'm not even sure yet though. It may be a weed.

I took half an iron tablet the other day because I was about to get my period. I got a stomachache that I had to lie down. With half a tablet! 

And last night, I had a different tooth chip. Wtf.

My period didn't even come. Stress, maybe?

And lastly... I actually already wrote about this the other day. But I guess it failed to post properly. (-_-;)

I know this one doesn't qualify for an unlucky streak..

Having a metaphorical door shut on my face for a few weeks.

I guess it finally got to me. It hurt. Maybe because I didn't know why. I cried a few times for two days until it happened again the other morning and... It was so sudden. I wasn't even going to stay long. Just ask how they've been. I was happy, just going to ask how they've been.