I figured out why I've been oversleeping. It's going on for a while now and I've simply chalked it up to stubborness. And sometimes, anxiety. But lately, I've been feeling like I want to throw everything away. To isolate. To close my social media. Just silence. I don't even want to hear myself.
I'm on the edge of another depressive episode.
No wonder it wouldn't go away. No wonder I've been feeling like I can't quite pull myself together. It's because this is new. It's never been like this before. Like something that simmers, never reaching the boiling point. No flurry of bubbles that overflows. So there's no end, no release. Just the quiet simmering feeling that something isn't quite right.
I don't even think that it's possible to become even more isolated. :)
I could close all my socials and it won't make a difference. Except for one. And if I'm silent, I might lose that. So I try to keep it together for a bit, enough to make space for my person. Even on the days that it's uncomfortable. Even when I don't feel like it. Let it simmer.
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