I was reading tweets related to the news that's been talked about lately. A woman shared her own traumatic experience and the aftermath of what it did to her. Somebody asked why. And among the comments I saw this:
And it just clicked.
It's strange because it feels like I couldn't understand exactly what was said, couldn't explain it, but it clicked. Like a puzzle piece snapping into place.
It felt the same way that I was feeling.
Letting the bills get unpaid to see the consequences is the same thing as me letting myself self-destruct so I could see my ugliest self. It felt both appalling and cathartic.
I didn't have the same life-altering violence others have experienced but this response resonated with me.
Do I have trauma?