Blackseraphine

 But today, I had other thoughts today.

I was thinking, knowing what I know...

He doesn't really want to come often.

Maybe he felt forced to come because I could see if he was there or not.

Then I couldn't. And then something changed and I thought it wasn't related at all at first because I couldn't test it. But now I think I'm sure.

So how do I adapt this time?

Maybe I didn't realize that I've been forcing him to come.

I thought messaging him multiple times a day made him happy. What if it didn't? 

Sometimes I think I know something... that I'm sure.

Then something makes me wondernif I'm imagining things.

There's an uneveness that puts a strain on my heart..