Blackseraphine

My song choice today is an ode to all the times, especially the early days, when talking to him made me swing my feet. And I mean that in the literal sense because my chair's legs were slightly longer than mine so my feet didn't fully reach the ground. 😅

All the thoughts in my head last night... it was probably not the right way for me to think. I must have given him a hard time. I should probably just get a new twitter account and let myself just spam post every negative thought there and then nuke it in one go. 

I did watch the latest episode of From last night with my sister. And I felt better after redirecting all my frustrations on every annoying character on this show. Honestly, if I wasn't so imvested in finding out the back story, I would have dropped this because why is everyone becoming increasingly insufferable? Anyway, that helped a lot and I tried to sleep earlier. 

I wasn't sure he'd come but last year we had a bit of an issue too. I went to sleep and suddenly woke up around 8. I fully expected him to be asleep back then. But out of habit, I checked if he was there. He was! I urged him to go to sleep and afterwards I realized... was he waiting for me to wake up? Was he waiting for our usual time? ☺️

And today I woke up suddenly, earlier than I had planned. I guess my subconscious was anticipating seeing him. And he was there.

Somebody called him "Father"! Lol! 

It's funny! The other day, somebody else pointed out the cartoon character on his clothes. I wondered if he intentionally chose that or was it just a coincindence? Because it was the same cartoon character my father liked as a kid. And then my sister used to say he looked like my dad. Which I got annoyed at. But thinking about it... When I was a very, very young, I would say I was gonna marry my father! 

Siya na nga talaga ang katuparan ng mga pangarap ko! 🤭 Ahahaha!