I can't talk because I keep crying
I had originally planned to spend the day chatting, intermittently. I had looked forward to it for days.
But a wave of disappointment came over me.
Was I forgotten? Again?
...
If I stop wanting, if I stop caring, then things would be easier.
Some days the heart feels like a ball, bouncing against the walls, high up into the sky, falling hard back to the ground, then bounced around once more.